Already Done My Time

Today feels... okay. 🙂

The server I've been on shut down today — last day before the reset — and I left a message for everyone. Just thanking people, saying goodbye. The end of that community wasn't exactly a happy story. There were sad parts, rough patches, and honestly... I think part of the reason I stayed as long as I did was that some part of me was still processing things. Still processing Matt.

But I said what I needed to say. And I think that's done now. Thank you, truly — for a few real months and real years, even the sad parts woven in between.

Now there's the question of whether I go back when it resets Friday.

My current lean... is no.

Life is fuller now. I've got things actually worth building. And that server — I love what it was, but it's also kind of drained me. I've already done my time there. I proved to myself what I could build. I built an entire base by myself. That was the thing I needed.

Going back now feels like reopening a tab you already closed for good reasons. I'd probably have to tell Monark I'm not coming back. And yeah — maybe I pop in, make a little town just to make a town, but beyond that... probably not. I know myself well enough to know where that goes.

Besides all of that, I finally gave Bear a walk. 🐕 It's been days, and it was good to just... move. Reno's cold right now ❄️ — they nearly got hit by a snow storm, apparently. Lots of people stuck on the highway. We walked anyway, bundled up, and it was fine.

Mostly I worked on the mobile game today. 📱

I'll be honest: I did spend a few too many minutes sketching out what a town on the new server would look like, if I were to build one. Just kind of... drifting into the hypothetical. Which is a thing my brain does when it's not quite ready to let something go.

But I snapped out of it. I don't need that in my life. The game is real. The game is where I actually want to put that energy. 🏗️

Socialized a bit with Jordan and his parents in the evening. A couple of Focusmates calls. Quiet, easy, nothing dramatic.

That's really just it for today.

Okay day. Probably fine. Time to sleep at a reasonable hour for once — I keep telling myself that and then staying up until 3 AM, so. Let's see. 😴