Hoppers

Jordan's mom took me to watch Hoppers today at a nearby theater. It was kinda Jordan's idea — I'd been nagging him to watch it with me, but he was busy with work, so he just asked his mom to take me. 😂 Which, to be fair, we've done before — she and I watched Hamnet together a few months back. She wanted to see this one too.

She's a really great movie date. Got the tickets and even a huge box of popcorn for us 🍿.

The movie itself was amazing. Chaotic to the absolute max — Everything Everywhere All at Once levels of chaotic. A giant shark 🦈 carried by birds as an attack method!? 😂 But underneath all of it, a masterclass on emotional regulation. A masterpiece, honestly.

I wrote a Letterboxd review afterward. The things that stuck with me: how nature 🌿 can calm emotions. How in nature there are certain rules that can't be helped, so you might as well accept them — pond rules, beaver gets caught by bear 🐻, gets eaten 🪵. How there's good deep inside everybody, unless someone's a straight-up psychopath or it's too late for them to heal. And the line I can't forget: trust is like a dam 🦫 — it can be rebuilt.

Which made me think of Bryce, of course. But I think it applies to me first and foremost right now. I want to repair the trust I have in myself. By actually doing. I can do this — with everything I'm working on, with everything I want to do in this world while I'm alive. 💪