In-N-Out Catering

So far today has been semi-productive. We went to the farmer's market this morning and then Costco, I did a work session, we went to fetch my car, then I did more work sessions, and now it's 6 pm. The AI cowork setup has definitely been helping. And yesterday's conversations have made me more work-focused today — more aware of the pressure too, in a useful way.

The flip side is that I'm also more aware of the small habits and ways I waste time — playing games, briefly logging onto Minecraft, that kind of thing — and I feel a bit triggered by it. Maybe because in the past my parents wouldn't have let me do this kind of thing, so there's some old reflex there. And now, as an adult with Jordan around, some part of me still flinches like I'm going to be judged if I just log on for a few minutes. Even though no one's actually watching.

Jordan is dealing with his own stuff. He asked for some Adderall this morning and became super thoughtful and focused on his own work — financial and structural stuff, mostly. Just now he was telling me about more of his thinking on the markets and investing. I think that's his way of feeling more in control of the world. And also, honestly, what he genuinely gets off on. Something he gets pulled into. It's a bit intimidating to watch, but yeah — that's him lol.

He also asked me this morning whether, if we ever got married, we could have In-N-Out catering. And I was like yeah sure, at the Star Wars themed wedding? Lol.

So that's a thing now.

Might add an entry later tonight depending on how the rest of the day goes. We'll see.